Thoughts From Just Another Passer By

madness persues only thoses who can escape, but the trails of an ordianry man, may fade away away in time but, only by his own hand, and if then the world could be, what all men wish to see, will he have done his part through hunger and emptiness of heart, and all who no this feeling crave it like figs to a dove, they name it love

London is a great place to loose yourself you can disappear and it is so impressive when you finally manage to find your way well its good

time is odd loose and hour gain your life just rembember to pray and learn how to spell

Always file paper work in safe places and the bible doesnt count. working wth no heating will mean you will be cold and keep smiling that way the world will always wonder and one more thing life is like a seesaw always more fun with some one else x

And if they all took time to look then maybe they would see step, back, relax, it's fine, really I'm still me Just reach out to let me know you will stick and stay around for time is slipping past my friend and my feet have lost there ground Well if tomorrow I say goodbye please just take no attention I'm only just freaking out about this new sensation Maybe time will halt for us maybe time will stop for old friends then we will never have to move on and this will never have to end

sometimes its good just to say yes sometimes you just have to take a stab in the dark dont forget or regret

I know it seems really hard to admit but sometimes you just want to scream and run away. Run away from everything, the people and the places and go home. But what happens if you have nowhere to call home. So you have a roof over your head and you’re not living on a street, but a home? The dictionary isn’t even brief about what a home is it goes on for quite a while. As a noun it is: • A place where one lives; a residence. • The physical structure within which one lives, such as a house or apartment. • A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household. • An environment offering security and happiness. • A valued place regarded as a refuge or place of origin. • The place, such as a country or town, where one was born or has lived for a long period. In the thesaurus: noun 1. A building or shelter where one lives: abode, domicile, dwelling, habitation, house, lodging (often used in plural), place, residence. Chiefly British dig (used in plural). See pro...

I was listening to the rain last night instead of typing and instead I wrote this: It comes down always comes down it never seems to stop rain upon this ground its like the tears that fall in heartache or joyful eye watering in a happy break but yet this moment this sound seems lonely like a lone man crying for those who have, has and are lost humming himself a drum beat upon these forgotten streets maybe its time for us all to meet just one last time before the night comes

The thrill of driving, the excitement, the speed, the cost! So much like life really. Some goes fast, some goes slow, there are accidents and moments so clear all starts to make sense. However oftern when you drive you only see those around you, you look out and try and avoid the accidents often missing lookin gout your self on the veiw, breathtaking reality. Then you become tired, the need to stop, to drink and water. It can be costly too. I mean petrol, the repairs, tax, MOT, services and insurance. It all adds up. You could compare life to driving, so much of the above applies. There is a thrill and an excitment, there are times that are fast and some that are slow, there are accidents and times when we look so closely at what is around us. At points we even get tired, not the everyday tired that tuks you up in bed at night, but the tired in life that drowns you deep into depression, one which we shrink away from life. The cost is so clear, we grow older, become less trusting, fall...

sunday come and sunday go, and i seem up rdiculously early as always but i realised i forgot to pack to go away today. not only that but it s mothers day

sometimes saturdays seem so lonely and sundays seem so solemn Mondays asre a moment and tusedays more stoic than a roman column wednesday is distant and thursday looking sad friday once again goes quick and thats a week to be had maybe as the months go by the pace will pass and quicken and then when years have comed to pass a slowness they will sicken but for now each day so seems the same and drifts by evermore and sleepily we dream it by forgetting to wish for more

Some time the best laid plans go to waste and usually they go to better plans or confusions. People will always laugh and support you no matter what and sometimes it takes the lack of a family, the lack of friends and a lack of a dog to make you see the funny side of going beyond the hem... Friends don't let you down, you just have to give them a chance to be there for you. xxx

Some times spending a little money makes you feel better. Maybe not when you have no money but treating your self once in a while. On top of that taking the time just to chat randomly also works so on that note I'm off to do just that chat chat chat xxx

It suddenly feels like spring agian. The sun is shining, the birds woke me up early with their chirrping, and the world seems greener. The saying goes, that the grass is always greener on the other side but it seems pretty green for me here at the moment. That doesnt mean that life is perfect, there are still leaves from autumn everywhere, the grass is wild and hedge's overgrown, but its a content state of out of control ness, if that makes sense in any way? so how is the garden of your life? im enjoying the sring coming in the midst of the discombobulating chaos.

What a faith that women had to strech out her hand and say yes if i touch his clothes i will be healed. amazing faith that im not sure unless you have really sunk to the depths of despair that women had been in you could truly ever understand. whats more is that he offered more than what she wanted. for someone who had been outcast by family and friends he offered a relationship. he called her daughter he knew nothing about her, not her past or her future or anything else. and yet she was his daughter. A relationship for all of us... lots to think about isnt it? xxx

I have a lot to be thankful for, A life still to live, A dream still to strive, Food at my table still to eaten. One more sunrise, As I'm sure tomorrow has no end. Strike me down but see me rise. I will no longer fall short of what I am, Because thats putting my friends, And me down.

there is a song for everything, often i find myself bursting out into song, or humming a tune because of a conversation I have had. Tomorrow there is a high possibilitythat I will be singing Abba because I am watching mammamia and the only reason i am watching that is because I've had the songs in my head because of the comic relief skit. there's always a song that reminds you of something in life... so many songs all for different parts of life. i was listening to on the other day made me think of so many friends and good times... time to get listening I think xxx

Things change. Its a fact really. Look at the weather its been sunny and cloudy today, I'm sure it's rained somewhere it changes constantly warm then cold. I went back to my old job under new managment today. It was odd seemed so different, in a good way. Things change the weather, places, People. People change, we change. Sometimes we change because we have to, or because we need to, or because we want to. Sometimes we need to for other people to be stronger better greater. As long as we are ourselves and are doing it for the best when we change then no damage. Change for the better... Change to mak a stand... Change to be great... Change to be what this world needs... Be the change you want to see in this world. xxx

Or rather I just watched several other people do something funny for money and donate generously. and dont i wish I had been davina... but oh well. The thing that always gets me is the video's i have spent hours crying over them, and the one that hit me most was about the mothers who die in chid birth and thn their children die because there is no one to look after them. I'm not a mother but I hope one day I will be and in this country there is such little chance of me dying throgh childbirth, but there, so many. On top of that I dont have to really worry about malaria or drinking water, hnger, education or money. It's just luck that I'm here and they're there... And i thank God for my privilige. xxx

Time for a space. its certainly good to have space: space to think space to cry space to sing space to pray space to go crazy space to be quiet space to be mad You know its good just to be away to take time for yourself to burst into tears, or to laugh, etc... Clears your head, really does. take some time, i think i might have said this and burst into tears what ever you feel it really does help! xxx

Hope:- it's what keeps us going don't you think. In life you know when you get to rock bottom its what you think right I hope it gets better, so much better. Living:- not in the sense of breathing living but in the sense of doing something with your life, rock climbing, Kayaking, talking ot a friend. It's a chance of taking the risks and chances. Laughter:- it's great, really great, makes everything better and brighter Love:- is what makes everything, the hope the living, the laughter all worthwhile And believing well its they key I will let you work out why... xxx

meeting new people is always exciting and theres nothing like the feeling of gettin know someone, even if you have known them for years. Discovering people is great, it helps us discover ourselves, so find out something new about someone... it may be your last chance. xxx

It's a common theme over the last year if you notice. Shining. Theres been the songs like um lets see.... Shine and the movie like stardust, and I'm sure there has been for all the opportunity. Take that with there song shine goes So come on, so come on, get it on Don't know what you're waiting for Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey So come on See the light on your face Let it shine Just let it shine Let it shine theres the guiding favourite - this little light of mine I was listening to a Reuben Morgan song, (i think) called mighty to save (please feel free to correct me if i'm wrong) which has the bridge shine your light and let the whole world see, for the gloryof the risen King and obviouddly the biblical dont hide your light under a bushel so time to switch the lights on inside and forget about the energy savng 'cause it is our time to shine so lets get it on...

Today being Sunday, one which I wasn't working, I went to church. Today also happens to been Holy Communion (HC) for our church. HC has been for quite some time something which I find very thought provoking and moving. There is something fascinating watching the different colours in clothing (often couples dressed co-ordinatingly), different wears in shoes, the concept of some many different stories being shared around one table. Reading the Methodist Worship Book durng the service, these words really stood out as a calling: "Come to this sacred table, Not because you must but because you may; come, not to declare that you are righteous, but that you desire to be true disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ: come, not because you are strong, but because you are weak; not because you have any claim on heaven's rewards, but because in your frailty and sin you stand in constant need of heaven's mercy and help" How true are those words spoken. And it's not just about H...

I have done many journeys in time, varying distance, various modes of transport, and you would have thought that the journey outwards would seem longer. You're excited and want to get started, or apprehensive and don't want to get there, something along them lines anyway. Yet I often find the journey home longer, looking back over memories, wishing you had done something differently, wishing you had had longer, wishing, longing, regretting, missing and hoping. There is also the prospect of waiting on the return journey home, the prostect of waiting to see loved ones, familiar places, occurences, correspondants. The journey is often agonising through tiredness, and longing, and possibly even painful from the position you have been sitting on a coach for the last 27 hours, with another 9 to go. The journey home marks a passing of an event, often you have changed for the better or for the worse. What is scarier is when you realise you are journeying home alone, that takes more get...

We all fall, but then we all skydive. Inspired by a friends facebook status, wish commented on how my friend was watching the rain and realised we all fell, it got me thinking. It's true, which although not really shcking is quite startling really, thinking what that person went through a rough patch but they're so strong, so happy, so vibrant, so perfect! But none of us are perfect, we are as they say only human. What is even more, worrying is not the right word but i suppose it will suffice, worrying is that we often forget ourselves that we are not perfect and are only human; which in turn makes it a harder surface when we fall. It's something we so often say we are or are not perfect without really ever realising the implication. The second is easy to explain its an untruth. The first we don't fully understand I don't feel, we use it as an excuse that we throw around nonchalantly. Are imperfections make us, being human makes us, we make us. We suceed we fail, yo...

some things never really snk in for the first few days, like cming home from school on holidays, or when family arrive back after being away. Or passing your driving test, like I did today. I suppose you then get back into routie or get used to it quickly like having a job. But have you ever noticed how quickly a day disappears before you know it its a week later and your shocked by the suddenness in whihc all is normal again. It makes it harder to keep track of things and friends I find. Let alone time for yourself. I think that would be my advice for the day do something good for you, not healthy but good. And have fun doing it, so maybe not a driving test. xxx

Its a nice night. The clouds and sunsets as I was clambered on by Brownies. Is it me or do you wonder that sometimes you know things are going to change, before they happen. Well I feel that a change is coming, it may not be signicant but its happening. Just like spring with the buds starting to show, tomorrow is a new day. Time to change, start something new. In as much as i wonder about change coming, I often wonder if we think change is coming because we know we are going to have to do something to inflict it. May be it's more about standing out in the crowd, being counted for what we believe in. Making it safe for everyone else, wearing the flourescent jacket. I don't know but thats my thought. What ever it certainly time to stand up and a time to be counted so lets make a change, and change this world for the better!

On msn how many times do you read a P.M and think I wonder... I do quite a lot, from a random selection of random friends part of no group in my listing there is it's not lying, its artistic licence dream theare in june monday night was an awesome night any one can be somebodies fool (and the classic) ... I often start conversations around them. They are I suppose insight into a person, you can see what is happening, their emotions, their needs. I just wish that we all had small signs with us all the while so that we always knew. Mystery may at to the fun but how many times have you put your foot int it... We just need to be open I think (I can hear the cries being shouted at me going hypocrit) but at least we know I speak from experience... it's painful but it really helps. xxx oh and my personal message tonight: "head out to the seas, for he is calming the storm"

Tonight I have been at Rangers reading and referencing maps. They are joyful things, they help you know where you are where you have come from and where you are going in geographical terms. Life however has no map and any way maps never tell you anything about what you might face past the physical stuff, so for life i suppose the landmarks are birth death and taxes so to say, the rest is unplotted. It makes it hard doesn't it. The hills are daunting, the rivers are wide, the woods peaceful, the beaches glorious. Thats what makes the journey great, the diverisity, the ups and down, the accomplishments, land mark events. On top of that our paths often interchange and weave with other peoples who never truly leave you as they walk in your heart leaving faint footprints. And although a map certainly would make it easier in this life, where would be the fun, the tangents, and the strange opportunities placed when at a fork and you follow your hunch... I think it's time to get lost i...

You really cant beat a Disney movie late on a sunday evening, if it's animation all the better. I decided that tonight was anight for Mulan, my brother just back from Japan and four weeks till he heads to china it made sense. Disney Movies always end up right, good wins evil doesnt time honoured tradition with comedy thrown in. kinda like life apart from good doesnt always win and evil usually does but comedy well thats if we smile. Some one said to me today "you're always smiling" and i truly believe that is the only way to make it through some times. Laughing certainly sure makes the heart feel lighter, take time to laugh and smile... xxx