Its been a real struggle the last fortnight. In college we have learnt so much about mission and always looming was the prospect of going on mission. Then it arrived. suddenly there where teams and planing and prep. There nerves and emotions and fear. For once I didn't keep this to myself which I am prone to do.
Two thing have come out of this:
- I have had great support of many brilliant people in varying ways, all of which I needed.
- My personal prayer life has increased greatly
Tomorrow I go 'on mission'. I am still terrified. I'm not going to hide that fact, I think that would be unhelpful. I'm possibly not as prepared as I could be, but we can't spend all our lives preparing. I'm possibly not a lot of things, but I assured and reassured that God will use that and what ever I am on top of that, and multiply that for he is a gracious God.
I return to the encouragement a friend in college gave me a week ago Tuesday during corridor prayers:
For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
2 Timothy 1: 6-7
Lord would you walk with me today, use me in a different way
Open my eyes to the opportunities and chance which you give
For its for you in this life I live.