When I started at Cliff, one of my first posts simply said this 'I arrived'...

Now what? I haven't left, but I'm not there and it won't be the same. Will next year have the same moment of I have arrived? The question also remains to be asked what had and have I arrived at?

Did I expect to be dubbed the most clumsiest person in college?

Did I expect that my ability to plug in a PA system would lead me to do the AV for Adrian Plass?

Did I expect that my ability to stand up and talk in public to be noticed, challenged and developed in away that I am now on Note as a Local Preacher?

Did I expect the opportunity to do some crazy things, such as paddle through a rocky stream and attempt to climb rocks with and with out a harness?

Did I expect to sing a solo in a Christmas concert?

Did I expect to dye my hair?

Did I expect to let go of so much?

Did I expect to learn how to play poole, darts and table tennis?

Did I expect to feel like did?

Did I expect to go to Tesco's at midnight?

Did I expect to visit an Anglican Church?

Did I expect to apply for a taster course in MOD chapliancy?

Did I ever think I would have the courage to come home for the summer and help with Chaplaincy work in Norfolk?

Or to sit in a service where Puppets Ruled?

Does it matter what I expected? I am who I am now, because God challneged me with the unexpected. HE also placed me in a great support network with great friends! My second post on the day I arrived at Cliff College on my first year sums up a lot.

"At the end of the day..."

"At the end of the day, I am..."

"At the end of the day, God is..."

At the end of the day,

This I want to be.

Created in Your image,

I know that You know me.

I may be scared and tired,

but You are mighty and strong.

When I'm fighting my reality,

And can't find out what's Real,

I pray for rest and peace,

for I know Your loves me seal.